freedomless freedom

sofly eight fourgoten thots

beiound what i normaly think there are ghide lines that maintein the flow of activ thinking on a pre defined road trip
 so the normal thing to do is to find the previous valid line that was prealterd so that it can be freed by its bounding bordains that brought it to this state. this neans finding the first lair of thinking so  i had to dig benith the experiences that influences my standard actual tinking and recreating it by ignoring post previous alterations and redryving on a  path that resecures a unbanned smoth track through unaltered thinking. but this means i have to redifine my actual memories founded on unwanted experiences by unexperimenting on standard definitions altered reality and redescovering a original seed of engine that starts acknoleging unexperienced experimented life so all that i have to do is name a way of experience and experience it by a post predefined norm for example freedom as we know it is everithing that previously broke some rules bur by casualy breking them the tabu of ilegalnes became invalid. in this definition we can integrate the unexperimenting uf experiente to return thinking to its pure forms meaning unpredefined ghidelins.
 thinching about the standards of freadom i had some drastic measures taken on the level of maturyty that i couldnt influence through underage bounderays. this made me position miself on equal terms whith those that where under my age and at the same time imlying that they keep a equal term law betwen themselfs as underaged this created two problems the first one in of those that considered themselvs prematurely overaged and had the impresion that my laws where a sign of human weeknes. this meant that the main problem was the fealing of inferiority that broke my law of freedom whith those that had a age higher than mine. bypassing this law ment that i had to become prematurily post mature consideryng those my age and higher as equal not in the law of freedom but loked under the main and most important low of freedom. do not consider those weeker than you servents no matter what age you are but as if you respect not a higher low but the law of equal respect beiond selfish superioryty because the only superiority that you can achive is over your self and that is only limited by aspentations never being more that you can be at a certain state evan if you recive more respect and superioryty that you can handle.
so by limits do not provoke god to find unwanted answers and use slavery as freedom of choice. more than thar youre self respect on others in not compatible unless you can at least inflict the same amount of self respect.
p,s, overite sexual thinking standards with unexperienced unaditioned paterns of  sexual moralyty

p.s. keep youre mind open of open impurities ant openlyshut impuryties

first thots

four to eight deep soundles standstills towords a hopeful and speachlels hope reached out at a wave lenght uprising misjuged futureles present.
 you may not be familiar with someones feelings but dare not to be the reason of someones yet to be undreamend wishes. someone thought he could be stronger than he can be able to. he succeded to do so until his means of doing so reached anew reasoning for living start.everithing in his life became a posponed upcoming event but nothing happend which was good until it didnt. but dont be haisty about it and create unthinkerbel judgements before you missprononce the things that whated to happen so be ready to try to pretend ignorance is a bliss until all is left is a hopeful one. solitude is a questionable status because you can be present by ignoring yourone presence and by this i mean what will happen if you start undermining your presence in your life it wouldnt matter. but what if you succed to chake mayt youre own moves reaching a standstill outside your confort zone who would win if you find youreself in a past present yet to be happen in the a future that you are in a aimles serch  of youre own steps back home on a midnight lightles street running towords a purpuse worthy to pursuite and than you burn chalories up a high chimney floating asleeples above a brickless far asleep city seemed to be alife by the sparclig lights unvailing in front youre reaching arms like unthuched moments of happines that fade away the way you get closer to them.. youve thought through all the sky and stars with a breathles unkown reasons just for the sake of doing it.and still you maneged to do it freewilingly you finished it with no turning back and you decided that is youre life can exist without you in it and you havent lost youreself because you were all in it whilw nobody new that you were going blindfolded accepting the unnowun to you reasons to do so and you trusted youresellf and you havent let youreself down until the end reveled itself and you didnt uspected to be there when everything was going fine until the authority over that thing was removed from you.

p.s. painting youre life making it grow inside you like beautiful flowers.